Friday, 6 March 2026

I Broke my pen

 If time were a softer thing,

something that could be folded between fingers and persuaded into stillness,
I would not bargain with it.

No prophecy would leave my lips.
No miracle would be summoned in quiet desperation.
I would not reach backwards to disturb what has already learned how to breathe without me.

Instead…
I would take your name,
hold it with the kind of care reserved for things that do not return,
and write carefully, in ink

Once...

...then break my pen.

Not out of caution,
nor fear of smudging...
but because completion has no interest in repetition.
I trust your name enough to never rewrite it

Let morning arrive with its rehearsed arguments.
Let night gather its ash and call it closure.
Let fate drag itself to my door, unrecognisable, asking for revision.

It will find nothing here.

The page has already been claimed.

And I...
Well...
I have already chosen the shape of what remains.

Your name does not waver in my hands.
It settles.
It stays.
I trust your name enough to live in it forever.

And whatever stains linger at my fingertips
are not accidents…

they are the quiet proof,
my final act of love,
that I never intended to write anything else.

Tuesday, 3 March 2026

Purple

There’s a color we keep returning to.

Purple. 

Not the kind you point out,
not the kind you explain,
the kind you feel when the world finally exhales and goes quiet. 

It shows up in different ways. 

Sometimes it’s yours; 
a bruised, royal weight,
the kind of purple that pulls the tide inward and
demands you sit with the depth of your own heart. 

Sometimes it’s mine;
a steady, lavender dusk,
the kind of purple that lets the light linger without
demanding a name for the dark. 

But most of the time…
it isn’t either of ours.

It’s just there. 

Between us. 

That same purple stretching across the silence we’ve built,
across everything we almost are,
everything we keep finding again in the seams of the day. 

And in those moments…
there’s no difference left.

No edges to hold onto.
No borders to cross. 

Just one colour
moving quietly between us,
as if we were always
just two different shades of the same arrival.