Maybe, Just Maybe, This Time

No poem can truly manifest the depths of emotions
from within my heart
If only I had the courage
to express my feelings for you
Maybe vibrant colours could have filled
the empty spaces between us

Nowadays, that we will soon be getting gray,
there's no more room for regrets
Sometimes, life seems cruel tearing us apart
with every tear from our hearts
Last time we saw each other
after so many countless moonless nights...

Perhaps I'm wrong about not telling you
what I truly feel deep inside me
My mind believes it's better kept that way,
but my heart says otherwise

In moments of clarity, I see a huge beacon
of shining hope for you and me

If yesterday had been forgiving,
then tomorrow our hearts shall beat as one forever...

My Muse, My Solace, My Gentle Stranger

I've dreamed of you.
My imagination painted you radiant..
a drifting angel in the last light of day,
More brilliant
than the hues of the setting sun..

Faceless and unknown to me
my mythical princess of the ocean...

I Paint You Beautiful

An attraction without judgement
unselfishly
wholeheartedly...

Because of you,
Theres meaning within my words..

Light in the dark..
and
Joy in the emptiness..

Muse..
such a flimsy word in comparison to you..

My solace,
my gentle stranger

I truly cannot describe this
and my words
so fragile, do you no justice!

I am a Victim

I am a victim of my own heart
I am in love, but love withdraws from me
And I'm left with wishes of what could have been
I cannot contend with what comes. I have tried, to no avail
Acquiescence is my only choice

Terrible thingc love
Compelling us to concede in a world bereft of compromise
Making us feel indomitable, yet weak and exposed
Easily undervalued is the intensity of this emotion
Because we fail to appreciate the power of THE three words

And we take little notice of the heart
So complex, yet easily broken
So effortlessly forgotten
And timec is just time; it heals NOTHING

So blessed I am then, with the reality that I at last have within myself the ability to love

Yet here I stand a victim...

Do You Think You Could?

[Inspired by Lerato Mannya]

Do you think for even a moment that maybe a decision one day must be made?
A decision to change...
change who you are,
to give up the one you love for the better?
Do you think you could?
If you had to give your love to someone else,
Would you be able to give up all of the time you spent?
The days given away,
The love you felt,
The tears you cried,
The promises made, The secrets told,
The memories created...
and the love shared?
Could you be the one to make the sacrifice?...
Would you grieve for the loss of that love?
or would you just move on?
Anger, would it set in?
NO!
Because if you love that person you would give them up to someone else...
If you had to, that is the ultimate show of Love.
To give up your happiness for others,
for people you barely know,
for someone you completely know!
Do you think you could?
Do you think you could turn it all around and let go?

Her ENTIRE being, I want... I Need

She’s chain-message rugged On her exterior
In other words, more masculine than other women
She has lived through
a world of painful hard knocks
and then some.
But, just one look into
her Beautiful eyes and
if you look close enough and see what I see,
you’ll know she’s sweetly soft
in a sensual way,
if you know what I mean (wink).
I get myself off thinking about
Like all the things I’d like to tell her.
In my dreams, I smell her
On my lunch break, I taste her
This is something I cannot fake,
Damn, my heart aches so!
I feel her satisfied moans in my loins
and
silently scream for a release into her,
praying she hears me.

I want you,
Deeply...
Soulfully...
and completely

Every inch of you, I WANT,
near me...
Drench me In your mystery
Though I'll take my time,
to discover the source of your light.
From places afar...
my heart reaches out for you
like a lost child with their arms outstretched
Ever longing for a passion, for the passion...
to be more than an echo...
I want you from the core of me...
so I meditate...daily
visualizing, my desire
I must draw you closer, If there is a way.
I will unlock it...
I will astrally project my essence to you in the dark of night...
Materializing next to you...
because... I ACHE for you.

I let my hands roam the barren lands of my body
Slowly searching for the sweet release
that only you....can give
Envisaging what your lips would feel like...
all over me...
saturating me...in all that you are

I imagine that my want....
has now...
become a need.

A man spent hollow and his sorrow

To become a man spent hollow.
The boy must laugh at his sorrow. 
My pain is my own, 
Have to make it my grace. 
Find strength in the dark and take the stake in my soul. 
So what if I've been dealt the worst hand? 
Play my bluff and make jokers of fortune. 
I'm an artist whose greatest work was the facade I painted. 
I'm an architect whose greatest monument was the walls I built. 
Every soldier has their protection, only a fool would be without. 
There's promise for me, deep behind a mind rife with doubt. 
I'm the chorus of a yet written ballad that's world famous. 
I'm the spark of a match that sets this tired city aflame. 
If I think I'll find peace, 
I'll Pack my bag, take sail on the seas. 
Leave this life never content with the tide, 
And set out to take this world in my stride...

I wont let the ink go dry, rather etch my story on my skin. 

I'll scribe about her Eyes of new hope like the sea 
Hair dark like midnight sky's 
Heart and soul full of desire 
how I found her company refreshing and new 
As we'd sit and talk until the morning hours. 
as I'd look into her and wonder if she knows...
She's a bitch above the bunch. 
I resist the urge to jump in. 
Afraid She would only use me and throw me away. 
I just patiently wait to watch you hit a mine!

My heart is honest, to live without passion would be sin.

Our Flirt

Cast me in dark shadows like a myth of figments
haunting
sequels to brush and blush in ecstasy?
 
In a fool's paradise
we could mock each other with sweet infatuation
and let the nectars flow.

She pulled me in
with silver tongue and ruby lips.

Seduced and tantalized
with bewitched  gestures of fancy indulgence
I flatter obscene desire?

I dived into the depth of her being,
and haven't resurfaced.
Infatuation bloomed, flowering this passion.
 
Let this adoration
arouse flagrant snugness with unquenched warmth and char,
Now Friendship is silent decay!
Tell me girl from the west, where the sun will ever set,
Would you love this with joy?

This Worthless Perfection

I live a starless life, Fragile and imperfect
Underneath rainy skies, Believed to be worthless
Unable to wake up from misery
Alone...
Unable to sleep and Drowning in our own screams with Tears that flow endlessly
Wishing tomorrow wouldn’t come
Bathed in self inflicted pain
Wanting to disappear far away
Hiding behind fakes smiles
Holding back over flowing sorrow
Reaching out for answers, for someone who understands us.
Someone to believe in, Since we can’t
believe in ourselves
Staring out the window, Wondering if there really is such a person

Who would actually care?
Hold me close? and always be
there?

To fill my starless sky with hopes and meaningful life
Scare away my fears, while wiping my tears
Becoming what life failed to be...
The only one to mean, everything

Words On A Page

If I told you this poem was meant for you,
would my words be more than words on a page?
If I told you that I liked you
Would you tell me you can't say that or relish in the notion of what my words have set in motion?
I'll have no regrets for what I may say,
I have so many emotions to give away
So tell me...
Please tell me...
These words mean more to you than just words on a page

PRICELESS WORTH

Hey pretty young lady...
Have a seat, let me tell you a story...
about your feminine glory...
and your worth...
Yeah you heard me...
what you have shining on the inside of you is real bright...
in fact its more of a delight...

I know you don't even know me...
but that doesn't stop me from knowing your story
See maybe you don't realize...
what it is that you got between your thighs....
It'll make a priest tell lies and a lying man tell the truth...
It's the most mysterious prize...
to be shared only with your soul mate...
not Tom, Dick and Harry trying to bust down your gate and write graffiti on the walls of your soul

Hey baby don't you know....
you are special!
You have the power to make the fiercest of Warriors lay down and be still...
Even in the middle of a battle, you can make them do your will
And That is why....
You need to shine...
By using your mind & not your behind

See babygirl...
I want to see you use what's between your ears...
Don't believe what people say...
cause your power fills them with fear
You have...
education, dedication and ancient help for divination along with the ability to spark creation

You have ...a beautiful mind so don't be inclined to bend to men's will
Use your self confidence like a shield
Cause you... are fierce......
and don't let anybody tell you different
make them listen cause YOU got something to say!
And as your soul glistens, get in position...
turn their heads as you walk by and tell them....
"Don't hate me cause  I'm beautiful"...
hear what I say
Because your success as a young woman is critical as the epidemic of unwed mothers gets political...
and HIV is a killer...but ...you don't hear me though
Use your god given intuition...
like spiritual ammunition and... don't let a man...
put you in any uncomfortable positions

YOU have control of your will...